Woman of Leisure

 daily, flirting, kinkster, vertigo  No Responses »
Jan 312013
 
Woman of Leisure

It’s been about seven months now since I felt like I was physically capable of sustaining a phone sex call in a manner worthy of charging for it. My current neurological makeup seems to favor activities which provide a lot of joy, but require very little concentration, and if either of those aren’t true, I run out of steam quickly. Writing for this blog has been oddly difficult as well. There are stories I want to tell, but I haven’t been able to figure out how to tell them here. I write things on FetLife, for my in-flesh kinkster friends who have become my community and local family of choice. Some day I’ll figure out how to translate them here as well. I was talking [read more...]

Tired, Happy, Done

 celebration, disability, vertigo  1 Response »
Sep 252012
 

We settled. I’m legally bound to disclose no details, but it was very close to the smallest number I needed to walk away in peace. Most importantly, it’s done, and I never have to look at the nasty papers again. Not today, not next month, not next year. Never. Explanation for those just joining in: I sued my long-term disability insurance for benefits they have refused to pay me for the last 3.5 years, regarding my neurological vertigo severe enough to keep me from working full-time. It was a brutal week leading up to the hearing. The hearing itself was mind-crushingly four hours long, and every aspect of the case was reviewed from every angle. I feel like all the truth was told. That part [read more...]

This Crazy Birthday

 birthday, celebration, disability, gifts, history, honesty, issues, vertigo, words  1 Response »
Sep 112012
 

I wrote this for a few friends, but thought I’d share it with you too. I’m turning 42 on September 18. It’s going to be awesome because that means I’ll be The Answer for a year (geek reference here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phrases_from_The_Hitchhiker%27s_Guide_to_the_Galaxy#Answer_to_the_Ultimate_Question_of_Life.2C_the_Universe.2C_and_Everything_.2842.29 ). And any year that you’re The Answer to the Ultimate Question has to be a great year. So, that’ll rock. But … I was born on my father’s 28th birthday, so he would have been turning 70, if he were still alive. I grew up thinking of it as “our birthday”, but this will my 20th birthday I’ve celebrated without him since the heart attack that took him at age 50. So. That’ll suck. And on Sept 24, I have a settlement hearing for [read more...]

Bunny Hop Brain

 availability, disability, issues, limits, vertigo  No Responses »
Aug 272012
 

Every few months, my vertigo morphs a bit. Some things get easier, others harder, and I have to re-learn my limits. The latest morph has been more of a step back than a step forward. The fundamental issue is predictability: no matter how much data I collect between “what I do” and “how I feel”, correlations are not appearing. I’ll morph again. I’m sure the next shift will be a big step forward. In the meantime, my ongoing lawsuit against my long-term disability insurance company is reaching a critical milestone: the settlement conference is in late September, which is the last stage before “last chance for a pre-court settlement offer”, which is the last step before court. So I’ve spent ridiculous amounts of time mulling [read more...]

Meds and Trains and My Missing Superpower

 disability, vertigo  2 Responses »
Jan 192012
 

When I was a manager, I encouraged people to find their “superpower”. As an example, I said mine was “English translator of English” — I have an unusual ability to help technical people understand the business side of things, and vice versa. Apparently, my Missing Superpower is: Keeping People Informed Of My Calendar. I told about five people I was traveling. Everyone else was confused and ignored. I’m really sorry. In my defense, I was using all my energy trying not to be terrified of traveling. It sort of worked (not really). I just got back from Chicago. I went there for a long-overdue checkup with my dizzy doctor to discuss my horse tranquilizers. He told me about a new habituation treatment that involves a [read more...]

How’d It Go?

 disability, honesty, issues, vertigo  6 Responses »
Oct 292011
 

Last Wednesday I had my Social Security disability hearing for my vertigo, covering the period from March 2009, when I got sick, to July 2010, when I started working as a phone sex operator. Beforehand, my lawyer prepped me what to expect, and we went over the evidence to ensure my she had the important findings at the top of her notes. We discussed whether to tell the judge I do the generic “phone consulting” or to tell him I’m a phone sex operator. The reality is, I chose this profession not only because I’m a giant slut who loves playing with callers’ sexual energy, but also because I can set my own hours, I can rest when I need to, and I can’t sustain [read more...]

On The Road Again

 availability, disability, honesty, issues, vertigo  No Responses »
Oct 242011
 

Tomorrow, I’m traveling back to Austin to have a disability hearing. Although the timing was unfortunate, I’m very glad it’s been scheduled and that I get time to explain my weird, complicated case. I spent the first six months of my vertigo visiting 17 doctors and a physical therapist, looking for diagnosis and a cure. In months 6-15, I tried a series of medicines, to varying degrees of less-than-total-success, but I also extended the lessons I learned in physical therapy to try to develop coping patterns of activity / rest. In month 15, I felt good enough about the balance of occasional medicines and my physical therapy gains to attempt to make a living at phone sex. I was not at all sure I could [read more...]

Care and Feeding of Galiana

 availability, dear galiana, history, issues, vertigo, writing  2 Responses »
Sep 162011
 
Care and Feeding of Galiana

In the probably-forgettable movie Made In Heaven, seen in my impressionable youth, a new soul falls in love with a guy named Mike in heaven, and then, after she’s born and grows up, although she doesn’t remember him directly, she writes a children’s book called “The Care and Feeding of Mike”. The sweet little phrase stuck with me, and now when I think of care, I think “The Care and Feeding of…” Urg. I have so much want. I want to continue the dialog I entered into with my celebration of male submissives post, reading others’ spectacular writings and leaving comments that make me seem like I know what I’m talking about. I want to keep engaging with Fizz and Chaos of Lab Coats & [read more...]

A Year and A Fortnight

 celebration, inner cast, issues, my lusts, vertigo  No Responses »
Aug 022011
 
A Year and A Fortnight

I started taking phone sex calls July 15, 2010, a few days after my husband took this picture of me in our kitchen to test the camera on his new phone. I hadn’t yet started writing my first version of my listing, because I didn’t yet know about NiteFlirt, but I had applied with a couple of dispatch phone sex services. I wrote blog posts about my quarter anniversary and my six-month anniversary. Then on July 15, 2011, I completely forgot to write about my 1-year anniversary. When I realized it, two very socially busy days later, I figured I’d wait until my blog anniversary (8/15) and do something then. On July 24, 2011, I got an email, with the subject line, “No?” and content [read more...]

Adjustments

 honesty, issues, limits, vertigo  No Responses »
Jun 262011
 

I took a while off from blogging (several of you dropped me a note to ask if I was okay – thank you!) for a few reasons, which can be summarized in this statement: I had a bit of an adjustment disorder (the wikipedia article is pretty good for explanation) In the two months before Feb 15, we knew that we might need to move, and that my husband might need to find a different job. In the three months between Feb 15 and June 15: we found out we would need to move (adjustment to new home) we moved – not just into a new home, but from Austin to Houston, which was somewhat unexpected (adjustment to new city) I had to figure out [read more...]

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